Alone

You walk like nothing is going on

You talk like everyone else

People don't know what's going on

You want to tell somone

But you can never get the words out

You feel alone

Like no one cares

You cry it out every now and then

Yet you dream about your perfect life

How you widhh that it would happen

But it never does

And never will

Every day you hope you have someone to talk to

You cry

Inside and out

Wishing things where back to the way it was when your mom used to hug you and say "I'll fix everything for you"

You wish that day would come back

Just face the fact that you're alone in this world

Show Me

People say there's always a way out of being hurt.

Well show me, show me that exit!

Because, right about now I need one;

I try to find one

I look everywhere.

But I can never find a way out.

So show me.

Show me that exit!!

human being

I am a human being
I am a person among other people
I do have flesh and blood
I do have fellings
I do fell pain

I do make mistakes
I do learn from them
Why should I live like this?
What did I do to deserve this?

I am a human being
I'm not crazy
I'm not lazy
Why do you treat me like this?
Who gave you a right to judge me?
Iam a human being

Don't treat me like a trash
Don't make me your toy
Don't think you going to walk all over me
Don't think i don't breathe
Iam a human being

Do you know me?
Or do you think you do?
I am God's creature
He knows what I am going through
I am a human being

for me to smile again

A million words wouldn't change a thing
I know because I've tried
A million tears wouldn't change a thing
I know because I've cried
I made a choice to finally let go
Because I can't stand the pain
it's time for my last tear to fall
And for me to smile again

Angel of Happiness

An angel came by and brought my heart to heaven
Reminds me about the happiness i haven't seen
Took away my sadness
Unlished me from total darkness

Rewinding the pass
Over viewing the hurts
Letting the pain flow
And happiness will follow

Before I'm hiding in my shadow
And after you showed me your halo
Joy had found me
On the darkness of my shadow

my private portal

I like writing online...aside from pouring out my emotions and things that just happen to tickle my innermost thoughts, there's a number of things that I need to jot down as they start to crowd my head in sheer discombobulation ...as i rethink them, i edit, copy, paste, crop... use words befitting the characters, edit all i want...in my own sweet time...this is my private portal and I love it!

Flowers

You're so lovely
So wonderfully beautiful
Pretty as the ocean
Petals soft as a kitten
You smell like a flowery perfume
The silence you give is calming
You smell so sweet

Make a difference in the world

I really want to make a difference in the world. I have been debating about the Peace Corps or CCS. I am going to school so I can't do anything from September to May but that leaves me all summer. So I am taking the 1st step and getting my passport and requesting info from both organizations. Hopefully by the end of this summer I will know what I want to do.

5/22/11

It's another beautiful day outside

Driving Home

No Winds

No cold wind does she feel,
Aches and pains forgotten
She sits upon the damp grass as they dance for her

They land softly upon gnarled hands
Beauty and age in stark contrast
They whisper to her , beckoning her to join them

She closes her eyes and flies with them
Over miles, years, time, space
Their music fills her heart and soul; she smiles

Once more she is with him; love of her life
From oh so long ago
Their music fills her heart and soul

Tonight she joins Them
The pain and fetters of age fall from her
She is young again; she is with him

The sun rises casting its yellow glow
Upon the lifeless figure of an old woman
Morning breeze gently lifting her silver strands

Peeking from a rosebud nearby
They sing; hand in hand
Together again

Lazy

I remember this one time,
when I was thinking so deep
my thoughts could
reach the bottom
of the ocean,
yet too lazy was I,
to tell my muscles to move
and write down all I had inside me..


I remember this one day,
I wanted to compose some poetry,
about how my heart
was being held captive by my own mind..
well I'll do it later ..I said

..Later never came..

today I'm here..
lost in my regret.

My best thoughts
always go unwritten.

I am like snow

If i were part of nature
i think i would be snow
for i am cold as ice
but i melt easily
i have beauty
and yet i can be deadly
i blend in very well
yet i am an individual
but you could not tell
for i am just a small part
of a big group
and one day i will vanish
with no trace nor tear shed for me

River Rocks

A flush of river water
splashes my face,
and I allow the beauty
to sink into my fiber.
Sunshine soaking into my skin
reminds me of a memory,
and I helplessly smile with thoughts
of my grass stained childhood,
while I watch my rocks
bounce amongst the current.

Teardrops Formed Her

She started as a lonely puddle
Blossoming through the years,
A river forming life
gaining strength from the tears,


Growing before our eyes
staying soft but strong,
Glowing in her wake
as whales sing her song,

Some say man has poisoned her
trying to control it all,
Spilling oil and waste
not heeding natures call,

Fighting to replenish
the treasures we desire,
If we fail to respect her
She will reduce to a lake of fire,

The ocean was a gift
granted from above,
When the Lord created earth
he gave her to us with Love

Let Fate Take Control

I don't know what to think or do. I feel like I have met the perfect man for me. He is kind, sweet, caring, and he makes me laugh. He likes me for who I am. But there is one big problem.......He lives across the country and is somewhat older than I. It's not the age thing that is the problem, it's the living across the country thing. The funny thing is that he lives in the town in i lived in for 4 years when I was growing up. How ironic is that?

For right now I am just going to see how things go and just let them happen, and hey if I ever end up going back to that town to live or just to visit some old friends, then it just might be meant to happen. I'll just let fate work things out.

Billy Joel - Lullaby (Goodnight, My Angel)

i love this song so much....i tear up a little every time

Lullaby of Elements

Serenity flows
as night loves pass through song
carried by white wind.

A Single Rose

A single rose
with thorns removed
its petals close
its purpose proved.

One night was given
for it to find
one so driven
yet clear of mind.

As the child reached
and gave a tug
the rose did teach
the child it hugged.

Now the child, all grown
keeps the rose in a book
and often is prone
to take a quick look
at what once was shown
and the path she then took

Hope Springs Eternal

"Hello there!" I say, though you're overdue again
you're still the favorite of the four.
Only the fresh breeze whispers your promise
for yet another wondrous encore.

For now all the living abide and wait for you
to emerge from that wintry shadow.
Life so eager, so ardent, so patient to convene so
I demand you, "Get on with the show!"

Your power so craftily wielded and practiced for
countless millennial gone by and by
Creatures of all sorts sing praise as you fill the
world with colors you timelessly apply

You've come and gone leaving nothing behind
but life where there was none before
Nothing asked in return for the greatest gifts our
world has ever known, "Oh, how we adore!"

The glory of God is nowhere more evident than your
works and lifeblood you provide
Scientists, teachers and philosophers alike stand
in awe as your magic is annually applied

So hurry Oh Spring, for your subjects await..
For nothing on Earth is so grand as the love
and life you create..