Tuesday, January 10, 2012
Saturday, January 7, 2012
2011 Emotional Rollercoaster
2011 was an emotional rollercoaster for me, w/ school, ex boyfriend drama, and an "accident" that left me more confused then ever, messing up my wrist and having to have reconstructive surgery on in and being in a cast for 4 months, then more emotions w/ school and being around a person that you still love but you both know that it will just not work out and are trying to be friends, just to name a few. A lot of shit went down in 2011 that I just wish never happened, but that's life and I just have to buck up and deal with it. It's the past and I'm not looking back.
Some good things did happen this year to me and I wouldn't trade them for the world. I've become soooooo much closer to my best friend Kristi and her son. I love them so much and I know that they will always be there for me no matter what and the same goes me, I'll always be for them. I turned 21 and from what I can remember of the night it was one of the best nights of my life. Surrounded w/ my best of friends and having a great time at Station7. I met this guy and we hit it off and it was amazing while it lasted. Even though things may not have ended up the way I wanted to w/ him I'm ok w/ that now. Some may be like "well how is that a good thing?". To me it is b/c he taught me that I'm beautiful just the way I am and that is ok. He showed me that sexy isn't all about what is on the outside but whats on the inside and how confident you are in yourself and I am thankful for the fact that he came into my life and showed me that. Yes I was very hurt w/ what happened between us but maybe it was for the better after all. He is still in my life but just as a friend and I'm ok w/ that. New Years Eve was also a highlight of 2011 for me. I may not have gone all out that night but that's fine w/ me b/c I still had a great time w/ my small group of friends that night.
I am so grateful for my friends. I don't think I would have made it through the year without them. I take every word they say to me and take it to heart. I will always be there for them all even though I don't get to see some of them that much. I love you all: Kristi, Kenny, Megan, Annie, Leanne, EJ, Maryeva, and Danny.
I have a feeling that this year is going to be a lot better. I started off on a high note and I'm going to try and keep it that way. I'm going to work on myself and they way I look at myself.
Some good things did happen this year to me and I wouldn't trade them for the world. I've become soooooo much closer to my best friend Kristi and her son. I love them so much and I know that they will always be there for me no matter what and the same goes me, I'll always be for them. I turned 21 and from what I can remember of the night it was one of the best nights of my life. Surrounded w/ my best of friends and having a great time at Station7. I met this guy and we hit it off and it was amazing while it lasted. Even though things may not have ended up the way I wanted to w/ him I'm ok w/ that now. Some may be like "well how is that a good thing?". To me it is b/c he taught me that I'm beautiful just the way I am and that is ok. He showed me that sexy isn't all about what is on the outside but whats on the inside and how confident you are in yourself and I am thankful for the fact that he came into my life and showed me that. Yes I was very hurt w/ what happened between us but maybe it was for the better after all. He is still in my life but just as a friend and I'm ok w/ that. New Years Eve was also a highlight of 2011 for me. I may not have gone all out that night but that's fine w/ me b/c I still had a great time w/ my small group of friends that night.
I am so grateful for my friends. I don't think I would have made it through the year without them. I take every word they say to me and take it to heart. I will always be there for them all even though I don't get to see some of them that much. I love you all: Kristi, Kenny, Megan, Annie, Leanne, EJ, Maryeva, and Danny.
I have a feeling that this year is going to be a lot better. I started off on a high note and I'm going to try and keep it that way. I'm going to work on myself and they way I look at myself.
Wednesday, January 4, 2012
Empty
Too much work in the day
Too many nights alone
Too much time in my house
And still not at home
Surrounded by people
Yet no friends can be found
Surrounded by noise
Yet I hear not a sound
I know many people
Whose smiles are not real
I know their hearts beat
And still they don't feel
The world is full of stuff
And I seem to have plenty
But with no one to love me
My soul still feels empty
Too many nights alone
Too much time in my house
And still not at home
Surrounded by people
Yet no friends can be found
Surrounded by noise
Yet I hear not a sound
I know many people
Whose smiles are not real
I know their hearts beat
And still they don't feel
The world is full of stuff
And I seem to have plenty
But with no one to love me
My soul still feels empty
Sunday, January 1, 2012
New Years! 2012
I had the best NYE last night ever. I got to spend it w/ my best friend Kristi and her bf Kenny, also w/ my friends Aaron and Corey. We didn't do much just sat and talked w/ some drinks and played pool but it was still fun. <3 As for a New Years Resalution I'm not making one b/c well I never keep them. I don't think anyone really does anyway lol :)
 |
| New Years Eve ready <3 |
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)